The Weight of Grace.

“But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace to me was not without effect.”

—1 Corinthians 15:10 (NIV)

Today, I was tasked to host a United Prayer event in Cavite.

As I prepared my script, I found myself in tears, moved by the reality that God chooses to partner with me purely out of His grace and love.

I looked at myself, aware of all the things that I fall short of and I am in awe of how God still chooses to trust me. At any given moment, God can raise up someone else. He can call another voice, another vessel. There is nothing in me that qualifies me apart from His mercy.

It is only by His grace that I stand.

I’m reminded of a powerful quote from The Heavenly Man by Brother Yun:

“We are absolutely nothing. We have nothing to be proud about. We have no abilities and nothing to offer God. The fact that He chooses to use us is only due to His grace. It has nothing to do with us. If God should choose to raise up others for His purpose and never use us again, we would have nothing to complain about.”

As I contemplate on this, I realized that grace has a weight. And it should not be taken lightly.

God’s grace is not a permission slip to show up unprepared, it is a motivation to show up whole—heart, mind, and soul fully yielded to Him.

This weight isn’t burdensome. It is beautiful.

This weight grounds me. It reminds me that I am chosen, not because I am worthy, but because He is gracious.

Grace reminds me that I wasn’t given a spotlight, I was entrusted a role. And that the things I profess in public should permeate every aspects of my life, even in the things unseen; How I prepare in private, how I treat others behind the scenes, how I worship when no one is watching, the integrity of my heart. All of it matters!

Because grace calls not just for excellence in public but for faithfulness in secret.

So today, I carry that grace with gratitude. I pray that I will not carry it carelessly, but carefully. And in all I do, may I steward this grace with humility, faithfulness, integrity, and full dependence on the One who enables me.